WHY OH WHY DID THE HOUSE OF JAKOB LEAVE DINAH’S ILLIGITIMATE DAUGHTER UNDER A THORN-BUSH?

There is a cruelty in the Torah that is too deliberate to be accidental.

The text does not soften it. It does not avert its eyes. It records, with surgical restraint, an act so stark that generations have stumbled over it and hurried past it, as if speed itself might absolve the reader.

וַתֵּצֵא בַּת־דִּינָה אֲשֶׁר יָלְדָה לְיַעֲקֹב לִרְאוֹת בִּבְנוֹת הָאָרֶץ
“And Dinah, daughter of Leah, whom she bore to Jacob, went out to see the daughters of the land.”
(Bereishit 34:1)

The verse opens gently, almost innocently. A young woman goes out to see. To look. To be seen. The Torah gives her curiosity without commentary, her movement without blame. Only afterward does the violence come. Only afterward does the rupture enter the story.

What happens next is well known. What happens after is not.

The tradition preserves a memory that the written text itself does not narrate directly: that Dinah conceived and bore a child from Shechem, and that this child was removed from her and placed beneath a thornbush. Not handed to a nurse. Not brought to safety. Placed beneath thorns.

This detail is not decorative. It is unbearable. And because it is unbearable, it must be necessary.

A thornbush is not a cradle. It is a boundary. It is a place where hands hesitate. Where approach costs blood. Where the living are kept at a distance.

The child is not named. The mother is not consulted. The Torah is silent — and that silence is not innocence. It is indictment.

The sages do not invent this scene lightly. They know exactly what they are doing by telling it this way. To place a newborn under thorns is to suspend a life between mercy and murder, between care and abandonment. It is not a choice made out of compassion. It is a choice made because every available option is saturated with blood.

What kind of house does this?

A house that cannot bear what has been born into it.

The family of Jacob is not merely a family. It is a proto-nation, still unformed, still unstable, still unable to hold contradiction without fracture. It has not yet learned how to metabolize violation without turning inward and devouring its own.

The brothers know something terrible has entered their camp. Not only violence from without, but disorder from within. A child born of rape is not merely a reminder of what happened to Dinah; it is a living contradiction of boundaries, lineage, inheritance, and identity. The world of strict lines has been breached, and the breach has a heartbeat.

Some of the brothers, the tradition hints, want the child dead.

Perhaps they want Dinah dead as well. Not out of cruelty alone, but out of terror. Terror of contagion. Terror of shame. Terror of what happens when the world no longer sorts cleanly into permitted and forbidden, inside and outside.

The thornbush is a compromise with murder.

Not kindness. Not justice. A deferral.
“We will not kill the child,” the act says.
“But we will not take responsibility for it either.”

The thorns keep hands away. The earth will decide. Heaven will decide. Fate will decide. Anything but us.

This is what it looks like when moral responsibility collapses under unprocessed horror.

And Dinah?

The Torah never tells us how Dinah feels. That silence is itself the loudest sound in the chapter.
She is not consulted when she is violated.
She is not consulted when her brothers slaughter a city.
She is not consulted when her child is removed from her arms.
Her body is the battlefield. Her interior life is erased.
And yet the tradition refuses to let her disappear.

It remembers that the child survives.
It remembers that the child is later taken into Egypt, raised in the house of Potiphar, given a new name, and eventually married to Joseph. The abandoned child beneath the thorns becomes Asenath. The one cast out becomes the mother of tribes.

The thornbush does not kill her. But it marks her.

The sages understand something here that is almost too painful to articulate: abandonment is not neutral. Being “left to Heaven” is not an act of faith; it is often an act of fear masquerading as piety. The thorns protect the family from having to decide whether this life belongs among them.

And Shimon?

Shimon is the brother who cannot bear ambiguity. His rage is incandescent, immediate, unfiltered. He and Levi respond to Dinah’s violation with annihilation. Not punishment. Erasure.

The tradition repeatedly associates Shimon with excess gevurah, with judgment untempered by patience, with a fire that does not yet know how to wait.

It is not accidental that Shimon is later the one who is bound in Egypt, held back while the others move forward. It is not accidental that his descendants struggle with dispersion and marginality. Judgment that cannot be contained scatters itself.
And it is not accidental that Shimon’s tikkun is bound to Dinah.

The tradition remembers that Shimon marries Dinah.

This is not romance. It is repair.

The man who could only respond to violation with destruction is bound to the woman whose life was fractured by it. Not to erase what happened, but to remain with it. To live inside the wound rather than burn the world down to escape it.

Marriage here is not consolation. It is containment.

Shimon’s tikkun is not that he becomes gentle. It is that he becomes responsible.

To marry Dinah is to say: I will not solve this by killing. I will not solve this by deferring to Heaven. I will stay.

And Dinah?

To remain alive after violation, after abandonment, after silence, is itself a form of resistance. Her story does not end in the field or beneath the thorns. It threads forward, quietly, through generations that will inherit both the violence and the repair.

The thornbush is the Torah’s way of forcing the reader to look at what happens when holiness is not yet strong enough to hold brokenness. It is a mirror held up to every generation that has ever said, “This is too much. Let someone else decide.”

The first act of cruelty is not the thorns.
It is the refusal to claim what has been born.

The Torah records it because the Torah is not afraid of our worst evasions. It shows us the moment when a family standing at the edge of becoming a people almost loses its soul — not through hatred alone, but through moral exhaustion.

And then it shows us something harder.
That what is abandoned can still return.
That what is placed beneath thorns can still grow.
That judgment without containment destroys, but judgment that learns to stay can be repaired.

The child beneath the thornbush survives.
Not because the act was righteous.
But because the story is not finished.
And neither is the work.

~ YCM Gray

At Parasha Wajigash!

I already ‚discussed‘ the Parasha HaShavua today…

Vajigash, the name of the Parasha HaShavua, means something like „He drew near.“ It’s important to recognize that this makes Joseph a human subject—he is no longer the „victim“ of machinations that he passively endures. No, Vajigash is the active role in the events, over which God is at work.

So who led Joseph to Egypt?

If you read the text of the Hebrew Bible, Joseph himself says that it was God. However, if you delve deeper, you’ll notice that God hardly plays an active role in the Parasha. From this, one can deduce that Joseph’s statement was therefore somewhat insufficient. Rather, it requires the active participants, without whom nothing is possible. Joseph’s dreams alone would not have accomplished anything. The brothers, who reacted hatefully to the dreams and sold him into slavery in Egypt, were essential to the story. Joseph repeatedly asserts that the dreams originate from God. However, the origin of the dreams cannot be attributed to God as the primary actor. Rather, upon closer examination, it is a historical meta-level that requires its own interpretation. This interpretation extends far beyond the psychological dimension in connection with the all-too-human events involving Joseph. It allows us to interpret the entire story as purposeful—and this is crucial. Israel must go to Egypt so that liberation from Egypt can occur, and consequently, so can the experience of Sinai, which is a prerequisite for the conquest of the land.

These are not accidental events; the Torah insists that this constitutes the very „purpose“ of Israel.

It can also be translated, Vayigash, as „Then stepped forward.“ The text speaks of Judah: „My lord! Please let us settle something without angering you! When you asked us if we had any relatives in our homeland, we replied that we had a father and a brother, the only one left of his mother. One brother died long ago. And when you learned this, you demanded that we bring this brother of ours to you. Without him, we would receive no grain from you,“ etc.

It is important that at this time there was a shortage of food in the homeland of Israel, and that the brother to be brought was Benjamin.

Jehuda reports that the father, Jacob, was therefore very saddened when he heard this demand, for he was the only son remaining in Israel.

The father, Jacob, was therefore very saddened when he heard this demand. For he was the only son left in Israel.

The father, Jacob, was therefore very saddened when he heard this demand. It is important to note that Benjamin is Joseph’s brother—one could also interpret Benjamin as being, in truth, a part of Joseph himself, yearning for reconciliation. Therefore, Jacob himself sets out for Egypt!

It is crucial to take Jacob’s fears seriously that the influence of a foreign environment would be detrimental to everyone. Therefore, he commissions his son Judah to establish a Torah academy, a yeshiva, there, so that the children and grandchildren of Israel can receive an education.

Thus, everything comes full circle, and Joseph and all his brothers are reconciled. That Jacob places such high value on Torah education—and this must be emphasized again—is an act of prayer. For it is a divine commandment to say twice in the daily Shema prayer, every morning and evening:

„And you shall instruct your children.“

Shavua Tov!

Is Chanukka really over for this year?!!

It’s not so important what people think.

Most have forgotten how. They confuse their opinions with their own thoughts, which lead to actions. The prerequisite for this is an ethical foundation and knowledge. Both have been largely lost in our time.

If these are lacking, then verbal and physical violence are given free rein. This must be kept in check. In civilized societies, this is the responsibility of the state.

Our task, as Jews, is to uphold the Torah as a framework for an ethical and G-d-given life. In this, we are neither dependent on outside influences, nor is this desired.

Conclusion:

We thrive best when left in peace—and we resolutely oppose all others by „globalizing“ the light of Hanukkah, educating ourselves, being taught, learning to discuss, and continuing to practice what we have always done. We take the Torah seriously and bring all the commandments to life in our daily lives. We all learn this differently, as each of us learns at our own pace. But we know that within each of us lies a divine spark that connects us all and makes us aware of how precious our neighbor is to us. Our ever-evolving and growing unity gives us everything we need, for it is to G-d alone that we are accountable.

For me, therefore, Judaism is both an anchor and a civilizational achievement spanning millennia—even today.

Not everyone can say the same.

No politics by me, but a Look into our Torah…

I am referring to the Parasha Toldot, which was only recently read publicly.

In the Parasha Toldot, we are introduced to Jakow and, with him, to the first biography in world literature. Even before his conception and birth, we are told about our ancestor Jakow (Bereshit/Genesis 25:22), and we then follow his life through childhood, adolescence, and adulthood, all the way to old age. The narrative focuses on Jakow and provides a comprehensive picture of a human life with all its human struggles, achievements, failures, and successes. We learn much about his suffering and pain, about jealousy and competition, about disputes over property, and the difficulties of raising children. We follow Jakow on his journey, facing these various challenges with which we, as average people, can easily identify. Unlike his grandfather Awraham, Jakow did not have to endure divine trials, nor was he subjected to the profound trauma that his father Jitzchak suffered at the Akedah (Binding of Jitzchak).

Jakow attained everything through a circuitous path. His birthright and paternal blessing, his wife, his wealth, and his new name were achieved only after arduous efforts and numerous setbacks. And yet, he received the privilege of receiving divine visions, and G-d appeared to him three times. It is Iesahayahu Leibowitz who points out that it was Jakow who wrestled with humanity and G-d and became Israel. We are all named after him and bear his responsibility and duty.

Shalom

At Parasha WaJeze… (Part 2)

At this time I am studying our Torah, to be prepared for the upcoming Shabbat. Its about Parasha WaJeze.

The parasha WaJeze is so named because Yaakov left Beersheba. There are different emphases in translations as to how WaJeze is to be understood. Personally, I prefer the interpretation of ‚approaching something‘. For me personally, it is the most important parasha in my life as a Jew.

Jacob goes to a place that the Torah only refers to indirectly… „and came to that place“. And yet everything is clear, as we will learn in the course of the further interpretation of the words of the Torah.
It is Jacob who leaves his familiar surroundings and takes one of the stones of the place for his head and lies down. It is a hard surface that Jacob chooses. On the one hand, this is his decision, and on the other hand, he does not make it easy for himself – quite deliberately.

Then he has his famous dream with the ladder reaching up to heaven. Messengers of G-d (plural) ascend and descend on it. These messengers are a clear indication of things to come. Then Jacob has a vision of G-d. G-d speaks to Jacob. Hashem promises him and his seed (i.e. descendants), that is, Israel as a whole. For Hashem says that all the clans of the earth will be blessed in him and spread out. Hashem clearly says, „I am with you, I will guard you wherever you go, and I will bring you back to this land, yes, I will not leave you until I have done what I have spoken to you.“

Which place does the Torah describe in this event? It is Mount Moriah, today’s Temple Mount! G-d is everywhere, but He does not reveal Himself everywhere.

When Jacob awakens, everything is strange to him, yet clear. He takes the stone on which his head rested and erects a monument with it, which he pours oil over. It is this symbolic act that sanctifies the profane and makes a decisive difference. He calls this place Bet-El, House of G-d. This refers to the Temple in Jerusalem.

Then he makes a vow. He formulates his words (in chapter 28, verse 20) not as a demand, but as a condition and logical prerequisite. …

But study and read every detail of the Parasha for yourself. I have always seen it as my duty never to lose my faith, even in exile. And I do not, because only in this way can I serve God and return to the house.

Shawua Tov.

At Parasha WaJeze (Part 1)…

At the moment I am busy with the Parasha WaJeze. The first sentence fascinates me – Yaakov left Beersheba and went to Charan. In the evening he has to set up camp and, after taking a stone from there to rest his head on and lying down, he has the famous dream. While Yaakov moves from Beersheba to Charan, Avraham moves with Lot from Ur to Charan. Both have the same goal, although their motivation is different.
Back to Ya’akov’s dream… The ladder is placed on the earth and touches the sky. Messengers rise from her and descend from her. Messengers (Malach) are angelic beings. See also Hosea 12:5. Let us not forget that they do this easily and gracefully, without any effort; while a climb requires overcoming gravity. If you refer to Genesis 32, 25ff., then we are talking about a man & G-d. While one movement stands for an ascent from the earth, it is not important how many steps the messenger has already covered, how high the Jew has already reached, but that he has already reached the previous ones and thus the foundation of the form the ladder in front of him. When a man climbs a ladder, this is a movement from earth to heaven, which means nothing other than that the man sanctifies the profane. While the opposite direction from heaven to earth represents bringing heaven to earth. This is the job of the messengers.

Explaining my Soul…

I am simply grateful for a good, loving relationship with my true self. This is the prerequisite for recognizing the light within myself and in the people around me. Sometimes—actually, almost always—I am respected as a Jew when I remain true to myself and can say, as I have always:

Yes, I am Jewish.

Yes, I am a Torah-observant.

Yes, I love Hashem.

Yes, I enjoy working.

Yes, I am loved.

Yes, I prefer writing to talking.

Yes, I talk more than I used to, and that makes me happy.

Yes, I am happy.

Yes, I think positively.

Yes, life is beautiful.

Yes, I miss my Jewish friends and family who still remember me from my time in Stuttgart.

Yes, my path leads back to Stuttgart, even though I spent my most important years in Esslingen.
… And yes, I will never give up on my dreams, because they lead me to Israel.

At Parasha Toldot…

Today, on Shabbat, I am studying our Torah. It connects me to the Holy.

I admit that my attention is already somewhat anticipating what will be read publicly in synagogues next week.

Parasha Toldot describes how Isaac and Reviqa, after twenty years of marriage, had their prayers for children answered by Hashem, and their desire for children was fulfilled. Reviqa gave birth to twins, Jacob and Esau.

Esau was completely different from Jacob from the very beginning—outwardly, and it quickly became apparent inwardly as well.

It was he who decided to sell his birthright to Jacob for a quick meal of lentil stew.

Esau doesn’t understand that there is a master plan by Hashem; instead, he acts very selfishly and is driven by jealousy and resentment.

Later—and I’m referring to chapter 28, verses 8-9—Esau sees that the daughters of Canaan were displeasing in the eyes of his father, Isaac. What does he do? He marries Machalat, the daughter of Ishmael!

The final part of the Parasha Toldot recounts how Isaac bestows the blessing of the firstborn upon his son, Jacob, thus passing it on through him. Esau is extremely enraged by the loss of the blessing and projects his frustration onto his brother. He does this so intensely that he even plots to kill him. Jacob then flees to his mother Reivka’s family. Isaac also instructs him to find a wife there.

Shavua Tov!

Truth and Peace

Truth is always subjectively colored and varies depending on the source from which we derive it. This is not the case with the Torah—our Torah.

It is God’s revelation to the Jewish people, and it is the Jewish people alone who take it seriously. The ethics of the Torah can be understood universally and are the starting point for a world that bases its lives and decisions on values, not opinions.

Furthermore, truth also depends on access to and engagement with sources of Jewish wisdom, because Judaism is not an ideology or a political program.

Truth also depends on our daily, general state of mind—affective-emotional, cognitive, and social. Our state of mind filters and focuses the information that affects us. Conversely, the information available to us affects our consciousness and perception.

The list of factors that create and influence our truth is therefore long. We must always be aware that there are many truths!

I am reminded of the saying, „Two Jews, three opinions.“ What I mean to say is that truth always emerges through dialogue and with consideration for all involved.

Therefore, when in doubt, I always choose peace. For it is peace that never delays. But first, order is needed so that peace can be established.

The first Kohen haGadol, Ahiaron, coined the phrase:

„Seek peace and pursue it.“

We should all take this more to heart.

Thoughts and Lessons at Parasha „WaJera“

Tonight I’m studying our Torah and the Parashah VaJera…

I’m fascinated by the first verses (Pasukim).

„And the Eternal One appeared to him (Abraham) among the oaks of Mamre, as he sat at the entrance of the tent, at the heat of the day.“

„And the Eternal One appeared to him (Abraham) under the oaks of Mamre, as he sat at the door of the tent.“

„` Then comes the encounter with the three men…

They are immediately recognized by Abraham as messengers of God, and he leaves no doubt about the intention behind his hospitality, which Abraham’s capable wife, Sarah, makes possible.

Both were childless at this time, and their age was advanced.

Abraham addresses the three men as „Lord“ and continues… „If only I had found favor in your eyes, do not pass by your servant.“

I immediately notice that Abraham addresses and pleads with all three in the singular. He assures them that he is a servant of the ONE God, the Eternal One, and offers Him the highest recognition.

Then the messenger of God promises that Sarah can and will have another child. Sarah cannot believe this at first when she hears it while inside the tent and thinks to herself, „That can’t be.“

The messenger speaks to them the whole time. Abraham! And he knows Sarah’s thoughts.

Then the three messengers set out for Sodom, and Abraham guides them.

And so the account continues…

I deliberately omit the events in Sodom because it is worthwhile to embark on the journey yourself to read the entire Parashah and draw conclusions from it, to learn from it, and above all, to let it resonate within us so that we may be taught and understand it with both heart and mind.

Who were these three messengers?

And what can we learn from the events in Sodom?

Firstly, what God’s plan is and how Abraham deals with it.

Secondly, what was the particular transgression of the inhabitants of Sodom that required the Eternal One to intervene?

I am spontaneously learning that God can do anything in our lives if we place our trust in Him.

And I am spontaneously learning that a harsh judgment can be softened through conversation with God (prayer) if this is done with an attitude of gentleness (Chessed) and directed solely toward the Eternal One, as in the case of Abraham.

But listen, read, and learn for yourselves.