WHY OH WHY DID THE HOUSE OF JAKOB LEAVE DINAH’S ILLIGITIMATE DAUGHTER UNDER A THORN-BUSH?

There is a cruelty in the Torah that is too deliberate to be accidental.

The text does not soften it. It does not avert its eyes. It records, with surgical restraint, an act so stark that generations have stumbled over it and hurried past it, as if speed itself might absolve the reader.

וַתֵּצֵא בַּת־דִּינָה אֲשֶׁר יָלְדָה לְיַעֲקֹב לִרְאוֹת בִּבְנוֹת הָאָרֶץ
“And Dinah, daughter of Leah, whom she bore to Jacob, went out to see the daughters of the land.”
(Bereishit 34:1)

The verse opens gently, almost innocently. A young woman goes out to see. To look. To be seen. The Torah gives her curiosity without commentary, her movement without blame. Only afterward does the violence come. Only afterward does the rupture enter the story.

What happens next is well known. What happens after is not.

The tradition preserves a memory that the written text itself does not narrate directly: that Dinah conceived and bore a child from Shechem, and that this child was removed from her and placed beneath a thornbush. Not handed to a nurse. Not brought to safety. Placed beneath thorns.

This detail is not decorative. It is unbearable. And because it is unbearable, it must be necessary.

A thornbush is not a cradle. It is a boundary. It is a place where hands hesitate. Where approach costs blood. Where the living are kept at a distance.

The child is not named. The mother is not consulted. The Torah is silent — and that silence is not innocence. It is indictment.

The sages do not invent this scene lightly. They know exactly what they are doing by telling it this way. To place a newborn under thorns is to suspend a life between mercy and murder, between care and abandonment. It is not a choice made out of compassion. It is a choice made because every available option is saturated with blood.

What kind of house does this?

A house that cannot bear what has been born into it.

The family of Jacob is not merely a family. It is a proto-nation, still unformed, still unstable, still unable to hold contradiction without fracture. It has not yet learned how to metabolize violation without turning inward and devouring its own.

The brothers know something terrible has entered their camp. Not only violence from without, but disorder from within. A child born of rape is not merely a reminder of what happened to Dinah; it is a living contradiction of boundaries, lineage, inheritance, and identity. The world of strict lines has been breached, and the breach has a heartbeat.

Some of the brothers, the tradition hints, want the child dead.

Perhaps they want Dinah dead as well. Not out of cruelty alone, but out of terror. Terror of contagion. Terror of shame. Terror of what happens when the world no longer sorts cleanly into permitted and forbidden, inside and outside.

The thornbush is a compromise with murder.

Not kindness. Not justice. A deferral.
“We will not kill the child,” the act says.
“But we will not take responsibility for it either.”

The thorns keep hands away. The earth will decide. Heaven will decide. Fate will decide. Anything but us.

This is what it looks like when moral responsibility collapses under unprocessed horror.

And Dinah?

The Torah never tells us how Dinah feels. That silence is itself the loudest sound in the chapter.
She is not consulted when she is violated.
She is not consulted when her brothers slaughter a city.
She is not consulted when her child is removed from her arms.
Her body is the battlefield. Her interior life is erased.
And yet the tradition refuses to let her disappear.

It remembers that the child survives.
It remembers that the child is later taken into Egypt, raised in the house of Potiphar, given a new name, and eventually married to Joseph. The abandoned child beneath the thorns becomes Asenath. The one cast out becomes the mother of tribes.

The thornbush does not kill her. But it marks her.

The sages understand something here that is almost too painful to articulate: abandonment is not neutral. Being “left to Heaven” is not an act of faith; it is often an act of fear masquerading as piety. The thorns protect the family from having to decide whether this life belongs among them.

And Shimon?

Shimon is the brother who cannot bear ambiguity. His rage is incandescent, immediate, unfiltered. He and Levi respond to Dinah’s violation with annihilation. Not punishment. Erasure.

The tradition repeatedly associates Shimon with excess gevurah, with judgment untempered by patience, with a fire that does not yet know how to wait.

It is not accidental that Shimon is later the one who is bound in Egypt, held back while the others move forward. It is not accidental that his descendants struggle with dispersion and marginality. Judgment that cannot be contained scatters itself.
And it is not accidental that Shimon’s tikkun is bound to Dinah.

The tradition remembers that Shimon marries Dinah.

This is not romance. It is repair.

The man who could only respond to violation with destruction is bound to the woman whose life was fractured by it. Not to erase what happened, but to remain with it. To live inside the wound rather than burn the world down to escape it.

Marriage here is not consolation. It is containment.

Shimon’s tikkun is not that he becomes gentle. It is that he becomes responsible.

To marry Dinah is to say: I will not solve this by killing. I will not solve this by deferring to Heaven. I will stay.

And Dinah?

To remain alive after violation, after abandonment, after silence, is itself a form of resistance. Her story does not end in the field or beneath the thorns. It threads forward, quietly, through generations that will inherit both the violence and the repair.

The thornbush is the Torah’s way of forcing the reader to look at what happens when holiness is not yet strong enough to hold brokenness. It is a mirror held up to every generation that has ever said, “This is too much. Let someone else decide.”

The first act of cruelty is not the thorns.
It is the refusal to claim what has been born.

The Torah records it because the Torah is not afraid of our worst evasions. It shows us the moment when a family standing at the edge of becoming a people almost loses its soul — not through hatred alone, but through moral exhaustion.

And then it shows us something harder.
That what is abandoned can still return.
That what is placed beneath thorns can still grow.
That judgment without containment destroys, but judgment that learns to stay can be repaired.

The child beneath the thornbush survives.
Not because the act was righteous.
But because the story is not finished.
And neither is the work.

~ YCM Gray

At Parasha Wajigash!

I already ‚discussed‘ the Parasha HaShavua today…

Vajigash, the name of the Parasha HaShavua, means something like „He drew near.“ It’s important to recognize that this makes Joseph a human subject—he is no longer the „victim“ of machinations that he passively endures. No, Vajigash is the active role in the events, over which God is at work.

So who led Joseph to Egypt?

If you read the text of the Hebrew Bible, Joseph himself says that it was God. However, if you delve deeper, you’ll notice that God hardly plays an active role in the Parasha. From this, one can deduce that Joseph’s statement was therefore somewhat insufficient. Rather, it requires the active participants, without whom nothing is possible. Joseph’s dreams alone would not have accomplished anything. The brothers, who reacted hatefully to the dreams and sold him into slavery in Egypt, were essential to the story. Joseph repeatedly asserts that the dreams originate from God. However, the origin of the dreams cannot be attributed to God as the primary actor. Rather, upon closer examination, it is a historical meta-level that requires its own interpretation. This interpretation extends far beyond the psychological dimension in connection with the all-too-human events involving Joseph. It allows us to interpret the entire story as purposeful—and this is crucial. Israel must go to Egypt so that liberation from Egypt can occur, and consequently, so can the experience of Sinai, which is a prerequisite for the conquest of the land.

These are not accidental events; the Torah insists that this constitutes the very „purpose“ of Israel.

It can also be translated, Vayigash, as „Then stepped forward.“ The text speaks of Judah: „My lord! Please let us settle something without angering you! When you asked us if we had any relatives in our homeland, we replied that we had a father and a brother, the only one left of his mother. One brother died long ago. And when you learned this, you demanded that we bring this brother of ours to you. Without him, we would receive no grain from you,“ etc.

It is important that at this time there was a shortage of food in the homeland of Israel, and that the brother to be brought was Benjamin.

Jehuda reports that the father, Jacob, was therefore very saddened when he heard this demand, for he was the only son remaining in Israel.

The father, Jacob, was therefore very saddened when he heard this demand. For he was the only son left in Israel.

The father, Jacob, was therefore very saddened when he heard this demand. It is important to note that Benjamin is Joseph’s brother—one could also interpret Benjamin as being, in truth, a part of Joseph himself, yearning for reconciliation. Therefore, Jacob himself sets out for Egypt!

It is crucial to take Jacob’s fears seriously that the influence of a foreign environment would be detrimental to everyone. Therefore, he commissions his son Judah to establish a Torah academy, a yeshiva, there, so that the children and grandchildren of Israel can receive an education.

Thus, everything comes full circle, and Joseph and all his brothers are reconciled. That Jacob places such high value on Torah education—and this must be emphasized again—is an act of prayer. For it is a divine commandment to say twice in the daily Shema prayer, every morning and evening:

„And you shall instruct your children.“

Shavua Tov!

Published by my friend Dan Lewin…

If people are truly honest, no one cares about what’s happening in another country—or the suffering of its people—unless they have a deep personal connection to those people. Around the world, there are countless cases of atrocities, oppression, and suffering—many far worse than what is happening in Gaza. So why the obsessive fixation on Israel while basically ignoring greater tragedies elsewhere?

Because, at its core, it’s fueled by jealousy and hatred. Few will admit it, so they wrap it in the language of morality—convincing themselves, and others, that they care deeply about “human rights.” But they don’t.

They aren’t empathetic, they aren’t kind, and they aren’t honest. They bend history, twist facts, and use false virtue as a cover for resentment

Thoughts at Parasha Ekew

This morning, I examined the words of Parasha Ekev for the first time this week. It’s important to me that the word Ekev can mean both ‚because‘ and ‚if.‘ 40 years of wandering in the desert are now complete… Right at the beginning of the parashah, it says:

„And it shall come to pass, because you have obeyed these statutes (rules) and observed and done them, that the Lord your God will keep with you the covenant and the mercy which He swore to your fathers.

Ekev is one of my favorite parashahs, which God assures everyone, the Jewish people, that He is the one who loves, blesses, and increases them. He is the one who takes away sickness from us and all the evil plagues of Egypt that we know, and He is the one who will bring them upon our haters.

So much for the beginning of Ekev. It is the promise to us that He not only heals, but also executes justice. This is very important to me… and I calm myself and find my inner peace.

Shavua Tov!

„Heart of Stone“or „Circles of Truth“

(Poem by Marcus Günther Michael Gundlach)

I never had a Heart of Stone
What are you waiting for?

I never had a Heart of Stone
Listen to the voice

I never had a Heart of Stone
Take your choice

Now, I am waiting
The times of quarrels
are over

Never use Torah
because she is for all of us

For the excluded
For the mighty
For the spiritual low
For the spiritual high

I am aware whats going on
Never give food to rule

My place is at Kiddush
and in Shul

Now you can listen
to Hashem

Because I sayed everything
My way is not over

I am staying strong
In my Love

Whats about you?
Fly like a dove

Lost my best years
The time with greatest fears

I feel like in my youth
And Trust in YOU

To serve again
In circles of truth

Heute ist Shabbat und es wird die Parasha Tzaw öffentlich gelesen…

… ich überlasse die Zuordnung der Verfehlungen derer, die sie betreffen, ganz Hashem. Bin mir voll bewusst, dass diese nicht ohne Konsequenzen bleiben werden. Hashem ist der beste Richter und alles unterliegt seinem Willen. Warum ist dass so?  Weil niemand ist wie der G-tt Israels. Dies ist die Lehre die gezogen werden kann. Hashem ist ein barmherziger, gnädiger… aber auch strenger und entzürnender G-tt. Es ist unsere Aufgabe als Juden uns selbst zu verbessern und jeden Tag die Möglichkeit zu ergreifen umzukehren, zum G-tt Israel’s – dem G-tt unserer Vorfahren. Dies ist auch der Grund, warum ich als Jude und Lewi jegliche Form des Götzendienstes ablehne; und glauben Sie mir: Es spielt dabei keine Rolle von welcher „Seite“ diese erfolgt.

Thoughts at Parasha Pekudej

Also this evening I dealt a little with the Parasha Pekude. Chapter 39, verse 14 particularly stood out to me. In this pasuk it is said that the stones were named after the (twelve) sons of Israel, their names.

Several thoughts run through my mind. Among other things, although ‚their names‘ are mentioned here, they are not listed afterwards. I interpret this to mean that it is important for the sons of Israel to make a name for themselves based on their merits. However, the clothing of the Kohen haGadol is described in detail in the lines immediately following. Also the ephod, the breastplate, with the precious stones. In the times of the Temple, these outstanding personalities – we are talking about the sons of Israel – were the representatives of the individual tribes. It is important to recognize that all tribes had different characteristics and are equally important. No one is allowed to rise above the other, because all stones have their place on the breastplate of the Kohen haGadol. These are equally close to his heart and that is why this is indispensable.

Prayer

A Prayer for After Shabbat

God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob,
Sarah, Rebecca, Rachel, and Leah,
Protector and Guardian of all creation,
Shield us and all Your world from harm,
And bring to the world light filled with love, peace, and hope.

Strengthen us to walk the path of truth and compassion,
To shine kindness onto others and connect hearts together,
To live in harmony with ourselves and our surroundings,
And to find renewed strength to believe in the goodness within every person.

Master of the Universe,
You give life to countless souls,
Grant each and every one of us the power to persevere,
To see the beauty in life,
And to feel the blessing in every moment.

May the coming week bring health, joy, and abundance,
And may every person feel they are part of Your infinite light.

Amen and Amen.

Shavua Tov U’Mevorach – A Good and Blessed Week.🙏🏻💙🇮🇱

Hashem (The Power)

The Power

Universe is not holding together
by gravity

It’s only Love

Never give up
in a wider frame
and recognize my limits
Don“t be ashamed

If we are ready to listen
and to give
for Life and find boundings of truth

It’s like being connected
… also with you

Watch the flying birds
and smile

Wonder why
this can happen

Everything is creation

by the ONE

Meanwhile a new human
is born
and many birds

Rebound me at the Love
I can give

Taking my ego
not to serious
And feel beloved

by G-d